Today’s daily devotional will be different as you will see. The reason is quite simple, really; when there are more than enough variables within ones life at a given time to process, the system slows to refresh while updating until it finally updates or crashes, unless there is an upgrade to handle the load; that is what I feel like is happening to me presently, but I also recognize that it’s a part of the rhythm of maturation; a part of acquiring wisdom and understanding.

³ When I was a son to my father,
Tender and the only son in the sight of my mother,
⁴ Then he taught me and said to me,
“Let your heart hold fast my words;
Keep my commandments and live;
⁵ Acquire wisdom! Acquire understanding!
Do not forget nor turn away from the words of my mouth.
⁶ “Do not forsake her, and she will guard you;
Love her, and she will watch over you.
⁷ “The beginning of wisdom is: Acquire wisdom;
And with all your acquiring, get understanding.

Sometimes I feel like fighting God, not to win obviously, but to change who I am for the man He makes me to be, and to understand Him more intimately.

I was recently in 2nd Samuel 6:

⁶ But when they came to the threshing floor of Nacon, Uzzah reached out toward the ark of God and took hold of it, for the oxen nearly upset  it. ⁷ And the anger of the Lord burned against Uzzah, and God struck him down there for his irreverence; and he died there by the ark of God. ⁸ David became angry because of the Lord’s outburst against Uzzah, and that place is called Perez-uzzah to this day. ⁹ So David was afraid of the Lord that day; and he said, “How can the ark of the Lord come to me?” ¹⁰ And David was unwilling to move the ark of the Lord into the city of David with him; but David took it aside to the house of Obed-edom the Gittite. ¹¹ Thus the ark of the Lord remained in the house of Obed-edom the Gittite three months, and the Lord blessed Obed-edom and all his household.

After reading that passage about David becoming angry with God, I felt like I could relate for reasons different than David, but similar in the context of… ⁹ So David was afraid of the Lord that day; and he said, “How can the ark of the Lord come to me?” …that question, “How can the Holy Spirit of grace through faith in Jesus Christ come to me?” And so like David who left the ark of the Lord at the house of Obed-edom for three months, am found to be in a similar place of unwillingness to move until it’s time to retrieve the “ark”.

¹² Now it was told King David, saying, “The Lord has blessed the house of Obed-edom and all that belongs to him, on account of the ark of God.” David went and brought up the ark of God from the house of Obed-edom into the city of David with gladness. ¹³ And so it was, that when the bearers of the ark of the Lord had gone six paces, he sacrificed an ox and a fatling. ¹⁴ And David was dancing before the Lord with all his might, and David was wearing a linen ephod. ¹⁵ So David and all the house of Israel were bringing up the ark of the Lord with shouting and the sound of the trumpet.