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Monologue: A Clear Conscience | 11/13/2022

In case you missed it, it was a beautiful day. This morning there was frost on the rooftops and green grass, a warm glow pierced through the cold making everything sparkle as though Edward from Twilight were on the scene in everything.

Laura (my wife) was still asleep; I went to our spot, the Place Unexpected, and sat on a bench to enjoy the mood of the morning.

Nathan posing for an epic pic of the morning mood

I’ve been thinking about how to “upload” what is “downloaded” in my heart and mind. I feel like at this present time my conscience is clear and in the process of being cleansed; cleansed from all the dust and muck that “hidden” sin leaves behind after every “item” is moved out. That reminds me of biblical verses vital to my present state:

“When an unclean spirit goes out of a man, he goes through dry places, seeking rest, and finds none. Then he says, ‘I will return to my house from which I came.’ And when he comes, he finds it empty, swept, and put in order. Then he goes and takes with him seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter and dwell there; and the last state of that man is worse than the first. So shall it also be with this wicked generation.”

— Matthew (12:43-45)

“When an unclean spirit goes out of a man, he goes through dry places, seeking rest; and finding none, he says, ‘I will return to my house from which I came.’ And when he comes, he finds it swept and put in order. Then he goes and takes with him seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter and dwell there; and the last state of that man is worse than the first.”

— Luke (11:24-26)

In both the gospel of Matthew and Luke, Jesus warns how the unclean spirit goes of a man—in this case myself—and travels through dry places until the spirit returns finding my conscience clear and clean, then goes out to bring with him seven other spirits more wicked than himself, making my next state worse than it was prior. I take responsibility for allowing what is unclean and against Christ in me.

As the Holy Spirit works to cleanse the dust and muck from within me, I must discipline myself as the apostle Paul said, “I do all things for the sake of the gospel, so that I may become a fellow partaker of it. Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown. Therefore I run thus: not with uncertainty. Thus I fight: not as one who beats the air. But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others, I myself should become disqualified.” And this writing is me showing up to do just that, discipline my body!

UNTIL NEXT TIME – LORD WILLING TOMORROW

DON’T CURSE THE CURSOR

This blinking text cursor *|* is a curse that has been the death of my writing, my heart torn between topics to write about all because each *blink* is another idea born into the existence of my mind. Thank you to my wife for encouraging and supporting me! Thank you to my counsel for putting up with me as I play “chess” with you in learning more and more the power of the Sword and how to wield it! Thank you Draoun for breaking the “ice”!

1 Thessalonians 5:12-13
12 But we request of you, brethren, that you appreciate those who diligently labor among you, and have charge over you in the Lord and give you instruction, 13 and that you esteem them very highly in love because of their work. Live in peace with one another.

Lets go!

DON’T BLAME THE CURSOR

It’s not the text cursor that’s the curse although easy to cast blame on it rather than your own creativity issues. Don’t blame the cursor, instead, ask a question like, How do I manage my desire and these thoughts for this project? Then act on the question by verbalizing your desire and thoughts to someone saying, “hey, I’m wanting to write about _________, but also ________, and I am stuck.” By doing this without expectation but hope will come the reward of inspiration. Also, be patient.

COMPARTMENTALIZATION

This post is a result of compartmentalization, turning the “curse of the cursor” into something constructive. As I write this post I’m preparing another post for accomplishing a personal goal. While I might be more excited to write about the topic of my other projects it’s necessary to keep order, which does not seem to come naturally to someone such as myself who enjoys spontaneity, adventure, pushing boundaries and breaking rules—those traits must be managed by practice that rewards discipline. Jordan Peterson’s Essay_Writing_Guide is an effective practice that will produce the discipline you’re desiring, especially: “PART THREE: THE TOPIC AND THE READING LIST“.

ESTABLISH CONNECTION

Before Jesus Christ began His ministry, God called His people through the prophet “Elijah” or John the Baptist by first, the preaching read in Matthew 2: “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.” The people of Israel heard God (prophetic Word of God recorded in the old testament) through the mouth of the Prophet and responded; the connection was made by the hearing of their ears the call to salvation, but for the connection to be established was in the action associated with the words, which was baptism in the waters of the Jordan professing their faith in the preaching. Jesus Christ, the Lamb of God who was to take away the sin of the world is the evidence to the power of salvation and eternal life. The Son of God came as tangible evidence of Israel’s faith to be baptized as God incarnate (the likeness of man innocent of sin) for fulfilling the prophetic curse upon the serpent since the beginning, establishing a new connection designed to save unto eternal life.

God gave us an example to a healthy connection for cultivating life eternal, the Spirit of the living God within the believing soul. If what you write, say and do into the world does not affect these components: Creativity, Cultivation, and Connection. You’ll be cursed with a blinking cursor.

MY DILEMMA

Sitting here at my office again with a stack of books and gingerbread flavored coffee; I just finished another chapter of the book I’m reading; my goal is to have 6 books read by the end of this month. And without going into detail, it’s not likely I’ll finish, nor that simple, but it’s a good goal to aim for. Although this goal is not something I can take credit for, it was inspired through a friend, mentor, and writing coach; thank you Neizan.

My office happens to be outside this time, same coffee spot, and the weather is perfect for our story although bound to change according to the wind advisory notification prompted earlier from my phone, and a friend telling me their Google Nest reported a typhoon today. That’s alright, a little rain never hurt anyone… 

You might be able to help me solve my dilemma to this overwhelming desire to travel and see the world for a twofold purpose, (1) the pleasure and experience of it, and (2) christian evangelism—not in that order of course.
I think it might be more for the pleasure of it than for evangelism because you and I can reach the world through modern day technology, but let’s go a bit deeper by exploring the psychological element.

… Laura’s awake …

Time to leave the office, but I look forward to writing to you from home, Lord willing.