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MACHINE

Good morning reader… it might not be morning by the time I finish this writing but that’s alright. I pray all is well. I’m feeling much better today, a little sore throat and some coughing, but my strength is coming back! That’s good news! I’m thankful to rest even though it’s not in my nature to rest like this, I don’t like being isolated. I’m a dagum peacock and I need to fly!

Alright, I’m thinking we continue on the “breakthrough” journey.

In the previous post you’ll get an idea of the functions for our body, soul, and spirit, that make up our entire Person (Being) – and I want to go deeper starting with what I’ll probably refer to a lot as mine and your “machine”, the body.

This is where I hope to bring back full circle my experience as an engineer (salvational engineering) to provide the reader with a unique perspective when applying diagnostics to a person’s spiritual well-being and eternal salvation. I also believe this framework will be an excellent resource; having the knowledge of the truth is very important, but what good is an engineer with knowledge of the truth yet without the skill of love to apply that knowledge to a machine broken by lies? The engineer is useless without the skill of love and tools to apply his or her knowledge of the truth!

So next… let’s talk about our machines!

BREAKTHROUGH

“Blog Log 1 – Location: Dallas, TX. … “ That’s what I feel my experience is on this first day of quarantine, a log to hold my morale accountable. 

It only took a year but COVID caught me. The experience is surreal having only heard of the experiences surrounding this virus and its variants to now experiencing it for myself. I felt asymptomatic for the most part, but this virus is deceptive in nature; when you think you’re okay and move about like normal it’s all of a sudden the unexpected weight hits you like a train as dramatic as that sounds, but when you’re in bed sweating profusely and too weak to make sense of what’s happening…it’s not dramatic at all, it’s “chilling” to say the least.

While this virus has the capacity to kill my body it does not have the capacity to destroy my soul unless granted to compromise my morale to the degree of renouncing my faith in Christ which makes for a great opportunity to continue on my endeavor to present my breakthrough.

BREAKTHROUGH

1 Thessalonians 5:23
Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you entirely; and may your spirit and soul and body be kept complete, without blame at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

The spirit and soul and body make up the entire Person, and each has a distinct function. 

My body is at the “Outer Courtyard” (outer court) of my entire Person; it’s here where the law in my body holds me prisoner to death, and my body is dead because of sin. As long as I’m putting to death the deeds of my body I’ll live—otherwise I’m living according to my flesh, and I must die. 


My soul is at the “Holy Place” (inner court) of my entire Person; it’s here where it’s psychological, and my soul has three major components: emotion, logic, and will, or heart, mind, and wisdom. I have a responsibility to the condition of my soul through faith—otherwise my soul is condemned through sin.


My spirit is at the innermost part of my entire Person, the “Holy of Holies” (hidden court) if you will; it’s here where the governance of God dwells, and my spirit is how I contact God if the Spirit of Christ is in me—otherwise my spirit is in contact with that which is evil. 

I Thessalonians 3:12-13
And the Lord make you to increase and abound in love toward another, and toward all men, even as we do toward you: To the end He may establish your hearts unblamable in holiness before God, even our Father, at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ with all His saints.

I will know what kind of spirit I have by what kind of fruit I bear. I will also know what kind of spirit someone else has by the fruit they bear.

…TO SECURITY TO ENGINEERING TO ENTREPRENEUR TO…

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So there I was, without a job and free to do whatever again… I thought about seeing if my old position in the Public Services department (City of Richardson) as a Water Production (SCADA) operator was available, or to go back to engineering, but my heart has always been geared toward mission work! I just hadn’t known how it was going to come about. 

Laura and I prayed and waited a month before I would go back to Security Guard work; bear in mind that I’d been working random shifts on the GaurdTexas team through a friend/ Operations Manager (Boss Man) who kept me in the loop for Security work throughout Dallas. God’s providence is very real! 

So that’s what I did, I decided to go back to being a humble security guard with a plan to work the night shift. The days are too distracting for what I needed to sort out and not only that, I needed time to learn premiere pro. I’ve always enjoyed shooting video to create content, and to my surprise Laura wanted to join me on an adventure to video editing work through a friend you’ll know or discover if you stick around on this site, aka Dallas. The man is so good at what he does, especially when it comes to loving his family and others! Dallas blessed us with work, entrusting us to his guidance and direction as we got our feet wet in that field through him.

Now there’s a question that’s been beckoning…

“So why not go to bible college and or seminary?” MAN—that’s the question! Isn’t it! The answer is not a simple one for me and really, I think it might be controversial which is not my intention for it to be, but I have my concerns about that approach to “ordination” because of some trauma from my past, I don’t trust it.

Fast forward to January of 2022 when a breakthrough happened when fellowshiping with a friend over…

1 Thessalonians 5:23

Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you entirely; and may your spirit and soul and body be kept complete, without blame at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

YO—PUNCH ME IN THE FACE

Listen, there’s too much information in the world, and everyone’s talking at once, so imma need everyone to shut the hell up for more than a few seconds. There are some things we gotta get sitchiated—situated, seriously—before we all start talking again. First of all, we need to understand something about the internet. Anyone can upload whatever. For example, do you know who the best writer in the world is?

It’s not my fault God made me the best writer in the world. I mean…what do you want from me? I’m like the Good Will Hunting of writing apart from the 12 brotha’s, but who’s counting—am I right!?

See, now, just because I used the internet to write an axiomatic truth about myself *as I laugh at my reflection in the screen* does not make it truth. So then how do I discern anything to be true that comes from the internet, especially from those of a “secular” position?

Allow me to offer an approach to not only discerning information from the internet, but from anyone or anything, everywhere.

If the objective is to gain knowledge for understanding the truth, then the approach for access is sharper than any two-edged sword; to access, you must face the meaning of death. And to face the meaning of death in light of the truth is to approach all information with not just your carnal perspective, but spiritual perspective.

The carnal perspective is a natural receptor for our objective, which need I say more when approaching information from this perspective; perhaps that it’s contingent on each and every person at their respective locations of background (upbringing)?

However, the spiritual perspective is not so natural for those carnally minded. Why? Because in order to have a spiritual perspective, the carnal intellect must die—hence the sharper than any two-edged sword (Hebrews 4:12).

And so if anyone reading this is not using both perspectives, then the only perspective being used…is carnal. To change that, I will present to you a question.

Do you really desire to come to the knowledge of the truth?

If you do. Then I mean to come to you as an ambassador, and so you must put your carnal intellect to death; in doing so will be an act of faith to trust in the God who makes you alive to the knowledge of the truth. That God is the Lord…

Jesus Christ!

Exploring A Framework Of Innocence To Build On For The Soul Held Captive To Sin

If you are a person who believes in right and wrong, and the just consequence for wrong behavior as well as the just reward for right behavior… then you might believe in God. But regardless of your position on the matter of religion or relationship with God, the reality is that we suffer experience to injustice.

From my experience, I feel pain—and those respected emotions that map it out (fear, sadness, worry, anger, ect. etc.)—when something ‘wrong’ happens as well as feel euphoric when something ‘right’ happens or is happening. To deny my experience of these truths that accompany right and wrong circumstance is to deny the sanity of my writing… yes, writing… because that is what my soul is doing. It’s writing every detail of action, thought, and experience.

My soul is innocent at this endeavor to document every detail about my share in this life; whether in the bed of a hospital due to cancer or the beds of many mansions around the world due to wealth, everything is recorded and bears the weight of meaning; the measure of value to our purpose on earth is of eternal significance.

How I conduct myself in respect of righteousness even in the most unfortunate of circumstances seems so blatantly obvious to signify something beyond this brief time on earth… yet in review of my past to present choices would be found guilty to unrighteousness and wonder what justice means beyond the grave.

So here I am, wondering, and if you by chance… chance, providence, happen to read my previous post, then you’ll remember the Doc’s document—Essay_Writing_Guide.

Essay Writing Guide  

You can use this word document to write an excellent essay from beginning to end, using a ten-step process. Most of the time, students or would-be essay writers are provided only with basic information about how to write, and most of that information concentrates on the details of formatting. These are necessary details, but writing is obviously far more than mere formatting. If you write your essay according to this plan, and you complete every step, you will produce an essay that is at least very good. You will also learn exactly how to write an essay, which is something very valuable to learn.  

To start writing your essay, go to the next page, for Part One: Introduction.      


      Jordan B Peterson  

The document is a framework of innocence, as innocence represents the soul or conscience guiding what is written about me in a manner worthy of the truth that holds me accountable to the source of innocence, but what happens when I decide to accept a different offer from a false source representing what I know to be the truth? I think the answer that I’ve experienced when accepting the lie, is a debt that I cannot pay.

So what is immoral about the following document?

Essay Writing Guide 

You can use this word document to write an excellent essay from beginning to end, using a ten-step process. Most of the time, students or would-be essay writers are provided only with basic information about how to write, and most of that information concentrates on the details of formatting. These are necessary details, but writing is obviously far more than mere formatting. If you write your essay according to this plan, and you complete every step, you will produce an essay that is at least very good. You will also learn exactly how to write an essay, which is something very valuable to learn. 

To start writing your essay, go to the next page, for Part One: Introduction.

     Nathan Dooley 

DISCLAIMER:
Nathan Psychology: The study of oneself for righteous behavior, and my written perspective on the experiential process of edification to sanctification; what does it mean to be born of God, overcome the world, and be made new through faith in believing Jesus Christ is the way to my salvation? I’m discovering answers through spiritual discipline—

The Weight And Measure Of Value In The Soul

When holding in your hand one one-hundredth of the United States dollar (a penny), you might see the value as copper plated zinc whereas someone else might see the emancipation proclamation. If we can judge the face on the one-cent coin representing the person of freedom measured invaluable as equal to the value of one one-hundredth unit of currency in the U.S. dollar… then why not judge the face on the human race representing the image and likeness of God as equal to the value of faith in eternal life?

To answer the question, “Why?”—from my previous post—is…

LOVE

I recognize my capacity to save life or take life, and upon learning more and more about what those capacities mean and their nature, am convinced that my living soul is a consequence to innocence. I find at the beginning of Genesis (ch.2) in the Bible—where God breathed into the nostrils of Man and Man became a living soul—that my soul borne since that beginning, is innocent.

However, I have the problem of sin.

Before contending with sin, let me present a framework to the soul as innocent. I think the framework will also reveal the framework of sin.

I’m obviously still working out how to conceptualize this… but somehow the following—at least—makes sense to me as a starting place.

If you’re not familiar with Dr. Jordan B Peterson yet, I’m sure it won’t be long before you are, hence—Essay_Writing_Guide

Essay Writing Guide

You can use this word document to write an excellent essay from beginning to end, using a ten-step process. Most of the time, students or would-be essay writers are provided only with basic information about how to write, and most of that information concentrates on the details of formatting. These are necessary details, but writing is obviously far more than mere formatting. If you write your essay according to this plan, and you complete every step, you will produce an essay that is at least very good. You will also learn exactly how to write an essay, which is something very valuable to learn.
To start writing your essay, go to the next page, for Part One: Introduction.

Jordan B Peterson

That is an excerpt from the document that anyone (with technology) can download. As soon as you open that document you will read what is quoted, but the point is that it’s a sharable document where anyone can edit within it to build their own essay or rewrite whatever they want. So whenever the document is downloaded, it’s innocent by the fact that it hasn’t been tampered with by something sinister, malevolent, evil. When it’s downloaded, the purpose of the “document” (soul) is to guide the person on how to write an essay, or… make them aware of the essay they are, and that is perpetually writing.

When God breathed in us a living soul, He breathed the innocence of life we are aware of right now. And the weight and measure of such value can only be governed calculable by the source of Who breathed.


DISCLAIMER:
Nathan Psychology: The study of oneself for righteous behavior, and my written perspective on the experiential process of edification to sanctification; what does it mean to be made new through faith by believing that Jesus Christ is the way to my salvation? I’m discovering answers through spiritual discipline—

For wisdom will enter your heart And knowledge will be pleasant to your soul | P2-V10

The Pursuit of Wisdom Brings Security

Proverbs 2; I die daily devotional.

10 For wisdom will enter your heart And knowledge will be pleasant to your soul;


WISDOM WILL ENTER

When we wake up everyday with an effort of directing our soul to the Kingdom of God, wisdom is stored up in the innermost part of our being waiting to fill every intent and motive with breath, word, and action.

Let’s really think about that for a moment.

The wisdom of God is stored up inside a person, how? The grace of God. By God’s grace we have access to live and have life, but then what does that mean, “to live and have life?” All of these words (wisdom, grace, live, life) mean different things to different people, but when we make it a spiritual matter, then what? The insignificance of these words become significant, not by any human will or definition, but by the will and power of God. God has somehow invented a way for the human soul to have faith by grace: without faith the human soul is lost in science, and without grace, the human soul is lost in sin.

The gospel is being sent out and preached to the ears of the unheard around the world, but this religion of Christianity seems to be well built into the subconscious of the western hemisphere. So wisdom has already entered every place where the gospel has been preached (not every place around the world, research the 10/40 window), even places where Jesus was unwelcome, which is as a consequence of their rejection—became a testimony against them; the disciples that carried the message saying, “‘The kingdom of God has come near to you.” means that the message of salvation was not received and becomes as a curse—a judgement so severe that not even the day of Sodom will compare when Jesus returns.

Luk 9:5“And as for those who do not receive you, as you go out from that city, shake the dust off your feet as a testimony against them.”

Luk 10:10 “But whatever city you enter and they do not receive you, go out into its streets and say, 11 ‘Even the dust of your city which clings to our feet we wipe off in protest against you; yet be sure of this, that the kingdom of God has come near.’ 12 I say to you, it will be more tolerable in that day for Sodom than for that city.”

So I pray this gospel I’m writing about will find you where you are with an open heart to receive and learn to understand, than to find you outright reject this presence of peace. The message comes so near to your heart with no expectation of price than to receive the gift of God’s kingdom, Jesus is knocking by this truth of His Word, and so will you open the door and invite Him in and listen while you host every need?

KNOWLEDGE WILL BE

The act of grace to receive the gospel message is an act of faith to receive the Lord Himself into your life by the power of the Holy Spirit. And the knowledge of Jesus in your heart is so pleasant that a taste of eternity is there, there is nothing like this experience of salvation in Christ our Lord, Jesus.

But now there is a world of which needs to hear about this grace through faith in our King that lives in the hearts of all that receive Him, the spiritual knowledge of the kingdom of God. So put on your armor against the temptations of the world, but carry the gospel with only your clothes, nothing more; in doing so will exercise that wisdom that has entered your heart and the pleasance of knowledge in every circumstance. Trust in the will of the Lord.

  • How do you experience wisdom entering your heart
  • What does knowledge feel like, is it pleasant?


RECOURCE

[BP]

Proverbs 2 (NASB)—blueletterbible.org
1 My son, if you will receive my words And treasure my commandments within you, 2 Make your ear attentive to wisdom, Incline your heart to understanding; 3 For if you cry for discernment, Lift your voice for understanding; 4 If you seek her as silver And search for her as for hidden treasures; Then you will discern the fear of the LORD And discover the knowledge of God. 6 For the LORD gives wisdom; From His mouth come  knowledge and understanding. He stores up sound wisdom for the upright; He is a shield to those who walk in integrity, 8 Guarding the paths of justice, And He preserves the way of His godly ones. 9 Then you will discern righteousness and justice And equity and every good course. 10 For wisdom will enter your heart And knowledge will be pleasant to your soul; 11 Discretion will guard you, Understanding will watch over you, 12 To deliver you from the way of evil, From the man who speaks perverse things; 13 From those who leave the paths of uprightness To walk in the ways of darkness; 14 Who delight in doing evil And rejoice in the perversity of evil; 15 Whose paths are crooked, And who are devious in their ways; 16 To deliver you from the strange woman, From the adulteress who flatters with her words; 17 That leaves the companion of her youth And forgets the covenant of her God; 18 For her house sinks down to death And her tracks lead to the dead; 19 None who go to her return again, Nor do they reach the paths of life. 20 So you will walk in the way of good men And keep to the paths of the righteous. 21 For the upright will live in the land And the blameless will remain in it; 22 But the wicked will be cut off from the land And the treacherous will be uprooted from it.


COMMENTARY

Matthew Henry (P2-V10) Commentary
I. For our preservation from evil, from the evil of sin, and, consequently, from the evil of trouble that attends it.

  • 1. In general (v. 10, 11), “When wisdom has entire possession of thee, it will keep thee.’ And when has it an entire possession of us?
    • (1.) When it has dominion over us. When it not only fills the head with notions, but enters into the heart and has a commanding power and influence upon that,-when it is upon the throne there, and gives law to the affections and passions,-when it enters into the heart as the leaven into the dough, to diffuse its relish there, and to change it into its own image-then it is likely to do us good.
    • (2.) When we have delight in it, when knowledge becomes pleasant to the soul: “When thou beginnest to relish it as the most agreeable entertainment, and art subject to its rules, of choice, and with satisfaction,-when thou callest the practice of virtue, not a slavery and a task, but liberty and pleasure, and a life of serious godliness the most comfortable life a man can live in this world,-then thou wilt find the benefit of it.’ Though its restraints should be in some respects unpleasant to the body, yet even those must be pleasant to the soul. When it has come to this, with us, discretion shall preserve us and keep us. God keeps the way of his saints (v. 8), by giving them discretion to keep out of harm’s way, to keep themselves that the wicked one touch them not. Note, A principle of grace reigning in the heart will be a powerful preservative both against corruptions within and temptations without, Eccl. 9:1618.

Wisdom shouts in the street | P1-V20

Wisdom Warns 

Proverbs 1; I die daily devotional.

20 Wisdom shouts in the street, She lifts her voice in the square;


We’ve just come out of some daily dying to the temptations sinners impress upon the innocent by the agent of evil—Satan. But now we enter into the severity of wisdoms call, and what it means when we don’t listen to the counsel of God.

WISDOM SHOUTS

I’ve never been Manhattan, but imagine you’re walking in the middle of time square of New York City. You’re walking and you begin to hear this voice coming from your conscience to “stop, watch, and listen”. So you do, and you observe as you feel this experience to your life being interrupted by this profound voice that compels you to stop, watch, and listen. This voice then begins to draw your attention to an interpretation of words that is not of this world, although personal to you. You begin to see your life stretched out in the course of time, and hear Wisdom lift her voice — this course satisfies a means to die. But listen to me, and you will live. Then you recall words spoken from long ago from men moved by the Holy Spirit of God. And there you are left in the square with a choice; “Do I follow this voice of Wisdom in my conscience, or do I suppress the motion into the darkness of ignorance and remain simple-minded on my present course?

  • Do I experience conviction?
  • Why am I convicted?
  • Why is there evil in the world?
  • Why is there good in the world?
  • What does death mean?
  • Do I listen to the voice of Wisdom?
  • Who are the men moved by the Holy Spirit spoke from God?

RECOURCE

Proverbs 1 (NASB)—blueletterbible.org
1 The proverbs of Solomon the son of David, king of Israel: 2 To know wisdom and instruction, To discern the sayings of understanding, 3 To receive instruction in wise behavior, Righteousness, justice and equity; To give prudence to the naïve, To the youth knowledge and discretion, 5 A wise man will hear and increase in learning, And a man of understanding will acquire wise counsel, 6 To understand a proverb and a figure, The words of the wise and their riddles. 7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge; Fools despise wisdom and instruction.  8 Hear, my son, your father’s instruction And do not forsake your mother’s teaching; 9 Indeed, they are a graceful wreath to your head And ornaments about your neck. 10 My son, if sinners entice you, Do not consent. 11 If they say, “Come with us, Let us lie in wait for blood, Let us ambush the innocent without cause; 12 Let us swallow them alive like Sheol, Even whole, as those who go down to the pit; 13 We will find all kinds of precious wealth, We will fill our houses with spoil; 14 Throw in your lot with us, We shall all have one purse,” 15 My son, do not walk in the way with them. Keep your feet from their path, 16 For their feet run to evil And they hasten to shed blood. 17 Indeed, it is useless to spread the baited net In the sight of any bird; 18 But they lie in wait for their own blood; They ambush their own lives. 19 So are the ways of everyone who gains by violence; It takes away the life of its possessors. 20 Wisdom shouts in the street, She lifts her voice in the square; 21 At the head of the noisy streets she cries out; At the entrance of the gates in the city she utters her sayings: 22 “How long, O naïve ones, will you love being simple-minded? And scoffers delight themselves in scoffing And fools hate knowledge? 23  “Turn to my reproof, Behold, I will pour out my spirit on you; I will make my words known to you. 24 “Because I called and you refused, I stretched out my hand and no one paid attention; 25 And you neglected all my counsel And did not want my reproof; 26 I will also laugh at your calamity; I will mock when your dread comes, 27 When your dread comes like a storm And your calamity comes like a whirlwind, When distress and anguish come upon you. 28 “Then they will call on me, but I will not answer; They will seek me diligently but they will not find me, 29 Because they hated knowledge And did not choose the fear of the LORD. 30 “They would not accept my counsel, They spurned all my reproof. 31 “So they shall eat of the fruit of their own way And be satiated with their own devices. 32 “For the waywardness of the naïve will kill them, And the complacency of fools will destroy them. 33 “But he who listens to me shall live securely And will be at ease from the dread of evil.”


COMMENTARY

Matthew Henry (P1-V20) Commentary
Solomon, having shown how dangerous it is to hearken to the temptations of Satan, here shows how dangerous it is not to hearken to the calls of God, which we shall for ever rue the neglect of. Observe,

  • I. By whom God calls to us-by wisdom. It is wisdom that crieth without. The word is plural-wisdoms, for, as there is infinite wisdom in God, so there is the manifold wisdom of God, Eph. 3:10. God speaks to the children of men by all the kinds of wisdom, and, as in every will, so in every word, of God there is a counsel.
    • 1. Human understanding is wisdom, the light and law of nature, the powers and faculties of reason, and the office of conscience, Job 38:36. By these God speaks to the children of men, and reasons with them. The spirit of a man is the candle of the Lord; and, wherever men go, they may hear a voice behind them, saying, This is the way; and the voice of conscience is the voice of God, and not always a still small voice, but sometimes it cries.
    • 2. Civil government is wisdom; it is God’s ordinance; magistrates are his vicegerents. God by David had said to the fools, Deal not foolishly, Ps. 75:4In the opening of the gates, and in the places of concourse, where courts were kept, the judges, the wisdom of the nation, called to wicked people, in God’s name, to repent and reform.
    • 3. Divine revelation is wisdom; all its dictates, all its laws, are wise as wisdom itself. God does, by the written word, by the law of Moses, which sets before us the blessing and the curse, by the priests’ lips which keep knowledge, by his servants the prophets, and all the ministers of this word, declare his mind to sinners, and give them warning as plainly as that which is proclaimed in the streets or courts of judicature by the criers. God, in his word, not only opens the case, but argues it with the children of men. Come, now, and let us reason together, Isa. 1:18.
    • 4. Christ himself is Wisdom, is Wisdoms, for in him are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge, and he is the centre of all divine revelation, not only the essential Wisdom, but the eternal Word, by whom God speaks to us and to whom he has committed all judgment; he it is therefore who here both pleads with sinners and passes sentence on them. He calls himself Wisdom, Lu. 7:35.

Nathan’s Public Journal | I

Monday, 12/7/2020

Here I sit, cameras in view, the time for me to be off duty is fast approaching. It’s nearly 06:00 (military time) coming off of a 12hr deep night shift during the weekend. My occupation is as a level 2 Private Security Officer and my work schedule is not ideal, but it’s currently the closest to my preference considering the options; this schedule fits my focus at this duration of my life. That focus is … well, we’ll get to that, but right now I’m still getting over this cringe.

I didn’t realize just how, hmmm … damaged I was, until re-reading some of my material of old. I can see where my mind would get stuck in the trauma of my past; a lot of my first posts I’d published nearly 3 years ago are written in a language of which feels, irreconcilable. I think, needless to say, I’m thankful for the grace—to be ever learning through undeveloped skills—of inexperience; the mistakes are endless, and that’s frustrating (I learn hands-on). However, there is a story in my mess waiting to be written, just not yet. Alright—time to head home.

So… now I hope, is as good-a-time as any to welcome you to my journal. If you’ve followed along with me (I know those of you who have) until now, you know this about me. I’ve been thinking about this journal idea for too long now (like yesterday—that’s a joke); writing happens to be very therapeutic for me, so uh… thank you, Therapist, I guess. This idea is much-much more than a therapy session you get to sit in on to hear all about my life’s drama. It will be an empirical psychology, only it’s written to be watched through the lens of intuition and imagination that writing/reading ignites!

Psychology—according to wordnik—at its core; the study of the human soul. And there is where I’m going to learn how my salvation is alive! I don’t know about you, but I want to understand my soul. And more than that, I want to understand the relationship between salvation of the human soul and God. I want to learn about what my belief structure means; I found someone in the field of psychology, a mentor. I’m exercising (like working out in the gym or fitness center) the weight of the gospel in my conscience. So I thought, “Well, what if my ‘T4P’ people want to keep a watchful eye on this progress and quite possibly, discover something of their own by this as well?” A big part of this idea goes out to Dallas Fluegel (check em out on YouTube) because I really like how he has structured—is structuring—himself by his videos, and want to apply that to my life.

Tuesday, 12/8/2020

What if you could understand your personality?

Function the way that you do?

Feel the way that you feel?

Does that not sound absolutely terrifying, it’s so awesome! Anyway, there are reasons I behave the way I do as soon as I wake-up into this world of causality that provides insight into who Nathan is and why he is, the way he is. I want to tap into that meaning of myself, so… here it goes. *Let’s make this a page turner.

Divided

Divided


It’s sad to reach a point in life when the thought of hell seems much more appealing than to remain in the skin of your flesh. When the thought of escape is your only option, but are petrified. When a call for help is not meant for saving.

I don’t hate my life. But that unreliable feeling of hate sure is poking and prodding. What I hate is being divided by the questions and doubts of people that presume to know me when they don’t have a clue; there is just not enough time in the world to be completely free with people that choose not to believe they can trust you unless you adhere to their “divine” perception for you, then they might believe. As long as you stay within their realm of interpretation and perception.

It’s incredible the amount of attention you will draw to demons when living for your faith “Jesus as Lord” by recognizing sin for what it is and how I’m in desperate need of salvation. It’s incredible the sirens and temptations in place just for you. It’s a constant crouching (Genesis 4:7):

“Those people see you as a tyrant. That woman wants you. That man desires you. Do this to get rich. Say that to make a difference. You’re a sexy beast, well endowed, who can resist. It feels good to be right. It feels good to have power. You’re a liar. You’re a fraud, poser, fake, and the list goes on because you’re unworthy. Don’t waste my time. You have our undivided attention. Look at him, he is better than you in every way. You’re smart and beautiful, but ugly and stupid too. I feel depressed. You’re unstable, unfit, unqualified. Here is your kingdom of heaven! No, there it is!”

I ask myself, “why is this happening?” But it only makes sense. Because…demons are taking the time the world does not have to get to know you and me. Whether the world or I want to believe that or not, the truth sets us free. I hate this spiritual war that divides my soul and blood into pieces as bread for demons and wine for their minions. If you are a believer in the gospel of Jesus Christ, you’ll understand this war, but if not then I hope this will prick at your conscience because you’re held captive thinking you’re free.

They are clever. The devil and his demons … but I see them. And they know that I see them. “It’s a terrifying thing to fall into the hands of the living God” (Hebrews 10:31). I’m in hell learning the tips and tricks of insanity navigating my way through the crowd in hope to save some if not all, “have you heard…“.

It’s sad…

Nathan Dooley