It’s amazing how writing is changing my life. There are other things available for me to be doing, like, figure out loop holes to covenant eyes and watch some porn, or worse, fantasize about porn unbeknownst to my wife and get myself off. So why not do that? I mean, why care about the obvious side effect like, divorce. It’s a normality now in our modern day culture and age of technology, what could possibly go wrong?
I think about people close to me, people that are as close as family should be, but aren’t due to that very side effect… I’m not complaining, only accepting the outcome of my reality in this world of…”ME”. I feel the Spirit of God grieve, my soul aches, but what does it matter? What influence could I possibly have on a world chosen for itself; not only men and women willing, but abducted people, and even, [even] innocent children trafficked into the sex industry. It’s a shame to confess that I’d once willingly contributed a watchful eye roaming through the abyss, or dare I say blissful pleasures of darkness online.
When I worked as an engineer was required to understand machinery and their systems of programming to maintain operation. It is very important to do routine maintenance and have an ability to discern your environment of operation to prevent malfunction of your machinery. It is a very personal experience, possibly, even…relationship, an engineer has with his “duty of service” to provide the right measure of care for harmony.
The spirit of a person is infinitely more complex than a piece of machinery. But if you don’t know me, that there, is my passion, my gift, you might say. People are predictable, as predictable as a storm approaching from the west, it’s only a matter of time before you see the lightening, hear the thunder, smell the rain, and taste the water. It’s not hard to discern the spirit of a person as you experience them, but it is very hard to fix the spirit of a broken person—especially one that doesn’t want to be fixed.
There is a wide range of feelings, intellect, perception, expectation, and truth to navigate through when seeking out your care for a person to make sense of the business and relationship. There are an innumerable amount of questions to sift through:
* “Who exactly am I dealing with?”
* “What advantage do I have by our relationship?”
* “When do we make the deal?”
* “Where is this relationship going?”
* “Why do I care to deal with this person?”
* “How do I respect this relationship?”
Are but a few. And noticed those indirect questions within the network of people. And I wonder, are they happy or have true joy? It’s funny, I also wonder, if you saw a picture of me and imagined what kind of conversation we might have, what do you think it would be about, who do you think would start the conversation, and why? The close-to-near immediate place I go to is the heart because of what intent I have for knowing you. While you or I may start the conversation with “Hi, my name is…” or “Hi! How are you?” The real stuff we are both processing through is much deeper than that because of information that defines our characters and chemistry.
You and I are but two particles of energy that clash to make sense of this mysterious reality of constant symphony that makes up two different perspectives into one view (I see you). Keep in mind that energy is invisible until it’s given light. The intent I have for knowing you is to discover your light, because, it’s there, the question is whether you’re willing to reveal it?
The world in which we live is a very deceptive and untrustworthy place. You just don’t really know who you can trust when the closest people you thought you could trust betrays you. I wouldn’t be writing this if I didn’t have some personal experience and couldn’t somehow relate to the dark energy of this world masquerading itself as light. But when equipped with a spirit of truth, can discern the spirit of deception, and pray for salvation.
There is a group that has been recently created on facebook to exercise trust for your spirit. The group is called “Salvational Engineering”. It is a place where questions can be asked to a community of people that are also asking questions and learning about their spirits themselves in this dark and seemingly uncertain world. Come check it out. Here is a link.