WAIT ON THE LORD

“Alexa, play thunderstorm sounds.” So majestic is the sound of thunderstorms that I could listen to it on loop. It seems to soothe the soul much like when David played the harp for King Saul when terrified by an evil spirit from the Lord according to 1 Samuel 16:14-23, not that I have an evil spirit that terrifies me, but I’d like to think I’m aware of such a spirit.

God means what He says because of the serious consequences experienced when disobeying His instructions. And as I discover more and more His instruction to the Church—myself a member—I am terrified at what His instruction means as I come to understand the Spirit of Christ in me. It’s simple to hear and read the words, “whoever loses his life for My sake and the gospels will…find it…save it…keep it…to eternal life”, but to make that spiritual principle of understanding, a reality, is not so simple and in fact, it’s a figure of death to self through the literal death of Christ, the ultimate means of worship and praise to the glory of God. How to exemplify that is envisioned by revelation when looking to the Word of God.

My heart stirs as the spirit moves within me to the skill of a coach. It’s dark in the belly of a fish; scales blind the eyes. To see, one must become blind to this present world of blood lust, pride and sexual immorality. To hear, one must become deaf to the sirens of worldly devices and coins clanging in the pockets of the rich. Don’t go the way of a fool seeking to save their life by selling their soul to secrets of darkness for the pleasures it’s of. Wait on the Lord. Wait on the Lord.

MY DILEMMA

Sitting here at my office again with a stack of books and gingerbread flavored coffee; I just finished another chapter of the book I’m reading; my goal is to have 6 books read by the end of this month. And without going into detail, it’s not likely I’ll finish, nor that simple, but it’s a good goal to aim for. Although this goal is not something I can take credit for, it was inspired through a friend, mentor, and writing coach; thank you Neizan.

My office happens to be outside this time, same coffee spot, and the weather is perfect for our story although bound to change according to the wind advisory notification prompted earlier from my phone, and a friend telling me their Google Nest reported a typhoon today. That’s alright, a little rain never hurt anyone… 

You might be able to help me solve my dilemma to this overwhelming desire to travel and see the world for a twofold purpose, (1) the pleasure and experience of it, and (2) christian evangelism—not in that order of course.
I think it might be more for the pleasure of it than for evangelism because you and I can reach the world through modern day technology, but let’s go a bit deeper by exploring the psychological element.

… Laura’s awake …

Time to leave the office, but I look forward to writing to you from home, Lord willing.

MY REJUVENATED EXPERIENCE

It was still dark and the mist dense this morning, but the weather was just right for walking. I felt different, more rejuvenated than usual—considering my schedule. Laura (my wife) fast asleep at home; I couldn’t resist the opportunity to take this time for myself after getting off from the graveyard shift to think on some things. And the things I thought organized into a plan of motivation for this next year, that, and Sunday’s service was brought up in a group text of friends—it was an awesome message over redemption from David Marvin at Watermark Community Church.

Now there is Christmas music in the background as I walk into my “office” (coffee spot) not too far from home with a Christmas tree of ornaments lit up, and several servers behind the counter skeptical of this guy that just walked in wearing all black, black cargo pants and a black panther hoodie as I find my place to sit down and get settled for some study and writing. One server had his eye on me, profiling me, until I looked up at him and waved. I’m a regular, they’ll know me when they actually see me.

There’s a guy reading a book behind me and lady with headphones in her ears rapid typing like her life depended on it to my left, and then there’s me and you, soaking in the environment for a story.

As I meditate on what a story means for people at different places around the world am found a little discouraged by the overwhelming amount of information flooding into my system to try and cope with understanding everything in light of my convictions, it’s not a new experience, but often forgotten until the research reminds me of the world so far outside myself. A world that seems unreachable, which is a false concept because the conviction of my belief in the Holy Spirit assures me of His providential agency that reaches the entire world for the salvation of all who would call on the name of the Lord—Jesus Christ.

What’s comforting is having the readiness to serve where the Spirit leads, and so here we are— well, I think you know what I mean (I’m curious as to where you really are), but reading and writing is such an awesome medium to influence the world with our new lives in Christ, which is so much more than a romance story. It’s every genre story!

DOWN T0 EARTH

Down from the ladder of the new heaven and earth is my unique position to change, an opportunity. Not to say that the new heaven and earth is without change, or opportunity, no, but that the spiritual tools provided from such revelation has graced me with choices to options that mean evidence to influence the unsaved humans of an old heaven and earth.

Writing has become my choice of choices to use as a means to combat that which is dark and evil for the sake of those who might read, a transit to the desire of God—for all to come to the knowledge of the truth so as to be saved.

MY RELATIONSHIP WITH CHANGE

It’s not that my relationship with Change is over once he or she has found salvation, on the contrary; it’s just begun. The issue is at the parting of company whence called to serve the entrance into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. The deep affection torn—in a sense—by being combat deployed into the world I escaped from.

The relationship reminds me of Moses escaped from the world of Pharaoh only to be called back to deliver his fellow man enslaved to the oppression of sinful man, both the Israelite and Egyptian one and the same person of Change. Yet the difference is revealed by the magnificent plan of God, a plan of eternity!

However, that plan does not mean the experience of heartbreak is any less painful; in fact, it’s of a pain only the spirit can bear as it’s too unbearable for the carnal intellect. The relationship with Change developed in a world where my right is my own—I can live how I want, change my identity, and demand the “free” world accept it—is all too intimate to not have a deep sense of affection for, as intercourse unveils the sanctity of Change.

I must be out of my mind, who can understand what language I speak?

Nevertheless, my heart breathes, my mind thinks, and my tongue moves for what might not be communicated any other way than this. Is it poetry? I do not know. But I know my brother is on the way because I… “stutter”. And we are about to embark on a journey to a relationship I once knew all too intimately, a relationship that did more than the damage of divorce; it invoked jealousy to murder, an unworthy deliverer.

In love,

Nathan

CHANGE – MUCH MORE THAN AN IDEA

…get a job, have a family—4 to 7 kids should be enough—was my plan before graduating High School. That was 14 years ago. Much has changed—to say the least, and while there’s much more to that story I can’t go back to change anything, nor should I try or pray to. Because where I am now is my opportunity at Change. And being that I consider myself a brother to those of faith in Christ am considering how many might be looking back or even forward pining at what is not reality or truth.

So here we are at time and opportunity to change our way of emotion and logic to organize the reality about us in faith that God hears the yearning of our hearts for truth in love that is real.

These questions of – What might be the change my readers desire for themselves? Where are they around the globe that I might understand their situation, their circumstances limiting their potential at being heard, admired, and encouraged to press on for the joy set before them the individual as well as us collectively—the whole? – concern for the fellow male and female (Man) are but shadows in the dark. Heart warming, yes, but far from faith in the Heart of God.

The true change hoped for right now—not when this is published, but right now, at the time of your reading—is the grace of God experienced by those yet to have salvation. Because there is no greater treasure than to serve the entrance into the kingdom of God…for in this way the entrance into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ will be abundantly supplied to you—2 Peter 1:11.

And so what is this change? I ask.

As a person who died in sin, I testify, belief in who Jesus is – is the change that procures promised salvation; and yet, as a person of faith to be alive, I testify, not without suffering. The evidence of change is the experience of spiritual discipline wrought by God through the Holy Spirit in the believing soul.

Can you, reader, articulate the testimony experienced by spiritual discipline in your change from the old self to … new?

In Love.

Nathan

YOU SHALL LOVE…

I recently read a rule on writing: write the way you speak. And so this is me trying to write how I speak, only…I don’t—actually—know that I would’ve started off so eloquently as I have. It might’ve started something more like me interrupting your peaceful train of thought on something much more…stupid— “so yo I read this rule about writing the way you speak,” as you roll your eyes to look at me with annoyance for interrupting a perfectly awesome daydream about things I would not care at all about other than, of course, the fact you cared enough to depart your attention from the society I so happen to inhabit. Which is unacceptable. I can’t have that.

Anyway. The point is, I need your attention. “Why” might be your urge that boils from within to a steam for my ears to hear, but let me save you that frustration by demanding you obey these two commandments before you burn…me (haha—did you like that pause, cause I did).

“Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?” And He said to him, “‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ This is the great and foremost commandment. The second is like it, ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ Upon these two commandments hang the whole Law and the Prophets.”—Matthew 22:36-40 (NASB)

See, now, doesn’t that make you feel all better…

If you’re of the literal type, you might be driven to brink of insanity when stuck on whether your author is being humorous or narcissistic—or possibly both. And so let me save you the suspense by affirming that I look at myself in the mirror when singing, also after taking a selfie, which causes me to start singing again. So basically I’m singing as I look at myself in the reflection of my computer screen:

OUR GOOOOOD…IS AN AWWESOMMEE GOD
HE REIGNS…FROM HEAVEN ABOVE
WITH WIIIISDOM, POWER, AND LOVE—

Because after all, our God is an awesome God for making someone like me— am I right!? And if you haven’t laughed at all by anything I’ve written thus far…welp, congratulations, you interpret everything from an extreme literal perspective. Which is perfectly fine, you just…might, well…need a moment, or two, to breathe, but regardless; my sense of humor is outstanding— am I right!?—(last one—that was the last one).

So now that you’ve loved me this far into your reading, lets talk about how God loves you.

YOU SHALL LOVE

I don’t think Jesus—the proclaimed Son of Man—would’ve said what He didn’t learn from His Father—the proclaimed God—without you—the proclaimed reader—in mind when He said: You shall love .

Is it wrong of me to believe that Jesus knew the conditions for such a—an axiomatic—statement yet to be proven on the terms of human nature?

I guess what I mean by that is…because Jesus knew that mine and your condition of sin (as equivalent to those questioning) blinds us from seeing the truth of such love accomplished in Him; how could there be any other way for us to see that eternal meaning of Love that God is, than for Jesus to die without tasting sin—although tempted to the point of sweating blood in resistance as you might recall “yet not as I [Jesus] will, but as You [Father] will“? The discipline of God’s Just wrath due our sin could only be quenched by the blood and water of the innocent Lamb of God—Jesus our Christ. And that, by what Jesus did on the cross, gives us a new way of seeing.

Whatever the hurt, pain, or suffering you’re experiencing; you might be on trail for your faith. And I encourage you by calling to mind where Jesus is, your Intercessor of the faith in which you hold so dear. Keep holding, hold on, don’t let go. God knows the truth of your condition so intimately that He gave His only Son as that Lamb for the sake of you. He loves you.

Don’t get me wrong, I write this in “confidence” while yet experiencing my own set of trials tempting my carnal intellect for all kinds of ghastly evil; a 3 or 4 letter word at my fingertips all too simple to type with a swift motion of my pinky—*enter*—is all it takes. Then down the rabbit hole I go with all reputation to proceed me, and that might be you at this very moment or possibly even the next. Is it? Will it be?

If it is; if it will be; be encouraged! There will be a necessary discipline, two world’s divided before you; one world will hate you, and the other will identify you as a hypocrite, but live in the former and not the latter even when you might visit the latter for a time (Don’t stay there!) Keep the faith!

Jesus showed us how we shall love, I pray we are doing so in this Christmas season, and even to death.

Amen