Featured photo: Ben Jacobi www.bdjphoto.com
Prayer is a place to go to empty the soul. Where darkness is not judged by the light; condemned, to Hell. But is a place to become invisible with God; completely vulnerable, as a child, broken before their parent, trusting it’s going to be okay when reasoning the pain away. Sometimes the process to mend what was broken…is more painful than when the break itself occurred. The experience is… Difficult to bear. But out of that pain produces character. Now what of the pain of the Parent/s? …Having to operate on their broken child screaming and lashing out “IT HURTS” because of the unexpected consequence. That pain, brings a unique revelation. God is mending to fix my spiritual brokenness…as my parent. When I close my eyes to enter the closet of my soul and the darkness of my life closes in around me… There comes a LIGHT! That LIGHT reflects the glory of a transformed nature. A new creation! The light is operating on me through conviction. The experience feels like Hell (whatever that place feels like) but just like a child would trust their parent to fix what is broken. I trust this spiritual process for the sake of my salvation. Emotions flood the system that produce questions compacted with surrender. Exclaiming in anguish:
I DON’T GET IT!!! I DON’T!! I DON’T UNDERSTAND!!! I’M ANGRY! IM SO ANGRY!!! IS THIS WHAT LIFE IS!? WHY WAS I ABUSED!? WHY WAS I ABANDONED!? WHY WASN’T I TAUGHT!? WHY WASN’T THIS EXPLAINED!? WHERE WAS MY CHOICE!? MY PROTECTION!? WHAT IS THE POINT!? I DON’T UNDERSTAND!? YOU PROMISED!!! YOU PROMISED!!! YOU ARE AN ETERNAL GOD AND MY FATHER! YOU KNEW MY LIFE BEFORE I KNEW MYSELF! WHAT IS THE REASON FOR THIS PAIN!? WHAT HAVE I DONE!? WHAT DID I DO!? AM I THE DEVIL!? FORGIVE ME? PLEASE! WILL YOU FORGIVE ME? HELP ME!
Ben’s photo so beautifully depicts a difference between the darkness that compliments the light and the darkness on the cabin by the light. The darkness on the cabin reflect my broken soul. The light within the cabin is the work of God that has transformed my soul into a spirit that cries out “DAD”! A evidential condition to every soul claiming Jesus for salvation. So the experience of our broken lives are not without meaning. In fact, the meaning for me is this… Every decision I’ve made right or wrong is consequential. Coming to the end of myself is the beginning of my existence. Everything about who I am was nailed to the Only Son of God on His cross. God is the Heavenly Father of Jesus Christ. Jesus is the Son of God that bore my sinful flesh to the point of His cross. Jesus obediently accepted to receive the consequence of my sin that should have killed me to Hell. But not just killed me… all the world! Because none is capable of enduring a consequence of that magnitude other than God Himself in Christ Jesus!
Death is the result of sin but not everyone will die because of their Life received by acknowledging Jesus as their reason of and for salvation. Because no one will be saved by any other name than His. And, the only way of truly knowing that, is by conviction through the Holy Spirit that seals our fate. Faith is the evidence of an invisible God at work in the life of a believer. The evidence is judged by the fruit of our lives The Holy Spirit of God is our Eternal Law Informant; letting us know we are dying for a reason; and with that understanding, teaching us how to conduct ourselves as a people saved by grace through faith. God related to us by sending His only Son for our example to follow what pleases Him as our Father. He was killed by sin at the beginning. My God and Father knew it would cost the life of His only innocent Son to redeem a guilty one.
I hope that is making sense. If not I pray you reason with me by going into a secluded place to pray. And, before you move the tongue of your mind; address God in the Name of Jesus; then communicate about who you are; what’ been done to you and what you’ve done. Listen with anticipation for His voice… I promise, He does answer.
Sooo… There is a man I know who reasoned with God for an example. He reasoned with God for sake of a city much like the world is today. I pray the reader will reason with God for the sake of their soul for salvation. In Jesus Name… Amen.
“And the LORD said, “The outcry of Sodom and Gomorrah is indeed great, and their sin is exceedingly grave. I will go down now, and see if they have done entirely according to its outcry, which has come to Me; and if not, I will know.” Then the men turned away from there and went toward Sodom, while Abraham was still standing before the LORD. Abraham came near and said, “Will You indeed sweep away the righteous with the wicked? Suppose there are fifty righteous within the city; will You indeed sweep it away and not spare the place for the sake of the fifty righteous who are in it? Far be it from You to do such a thing, to slay the righteous with the wicked, so that the righteous and the wicked are treated alike. Far be it from You! Shall not the Judge of all the earth deal justly?” So the LORD said, “If I find in Sodom fifty righteous within the city, then I will spare the whole place on their account.” And Abraham replied, “Now behold, I have ventured to speak to the Lord, although I am but dust and ashes. Suppose the fifty righteous are lacking five, will You destroy the whole city because of five?” And He said, “I will not destroy it if I find forty-five there.” He spoke to Him yet again and said, “Suppose forty are found there?” And He said, “I will not do it on account of the forty.” Then he said, “Oh may the Lord not be angry, and I shall speak; suppose thirty are found there?” And He said, “I will not do it if I find thirty there.” And he said, “Now behold, I have ventured to speak to the Lord; suppose twenty are found there?” And He said, “I will not destroy it on account of the twenty.” Then he said, “Oh may the Lord not be angry, and I shall speak only this once; suppose ten are found there?” And He said, “I will not destroy it on account of the ten.” As soon as He had finished speaking to Abraham the LORD departed, and Abraham returned to his place.”
~ Genesis 18:20-33